A little update

A few days have gone and passed and things are starting to get better. Shes starting to get used to the house and the best of all her bassinet. She sleeps in there now instead of her car seat. I think that she is becoming content with knowing that this is home and she wont be moving anymore.

Had a funny day yesturday. Well first off i was changing her and she decided that right as i was throwing the diaper away that she would relieve herself all over her nightie and her blanket. SO i had to change her. Then once she was all changed and she slept a little it was feeding time and i was changing her again and she decided that it would be funny to POOP...yes i said POOP on her mommy. What was the funniest thing was that she was laying down and it squirted at me. I think she coughed or was crying really hard and it just squirted. It landed on my pants, my tummy and her blanket. We sure have one talented daughter.

Then i was having myself a little FLIP out because i hadnt heard from Sal in over 24 hours. But i knew that i was just over reacting like i usually do. I just have those days, i mean deep down inside i know that everything is just A OK but then theres still that worry that something might happen. And right now it scares me a million times more because he is coming home soon. But then i eventually got ahold of him and it was by far the best 2 hours of my life. Just being able to talk to him and hear his voice and hear him laugh and just laugh together. I get like a little school girl when im able to hear his voice. I have a smile from ear to ear. Its the best feeling ever. But i think that the BEST feeling ever is going to the moment that i get to hold him again. Feel is heart beat, feel is warm skin, and take him home with me and know that he wont be leaving me again for a while to go back to that place that scares the living shit out of me.

It is still HARD to believe that our 15 months are almost over. I mean it feels like just the other day i was taking him to schofield to drop him off and say good-bye. All the endless hours i spent talking to him online are coming to an end and im so EXCITED! I been waiting for this day since he left 420 days ago. DAM!!! 420 days! Doesnt really seem that long when you look at it that way. But when you look at it as 15 months is seems a million times longer. But the end is in sight, we are in the last stretch of this LONG ASS mile. And we will finally be together again. Hard to believe that we have made it this far and this long. When we were talking today we were talking about how long we have been together. And well May 25th 2009 will make 2 years, but physically together we have been together about 5 months. Sure shows you how the military life goes. No matter how hard it can get its the life that i choose, well hes the life that i choose and im not gonna wine and piss and moan because hes gone. I admit it was hard, and i wasnt prepared for what was to come but i came into this relationship fully knowing that he was going to be deployed shortly after we met. But we have grown so much in the past year that its insane. We have had our ups and we have had our downs (more ups then downs) but no matter what we have been there by one anothers side supporting one another. I love him so much more then i did the moment i met him. We have grown as one and as a couple. I am SO happy that i found him and the he accepts me for the person that i am, flaws and all! I love him more and more as each day goes by and im counting down the days that i have left till i get to hold my baby in his arms and he gets to hold our baby in his arms as well. Thank GOD that this deployment is over. Im so ready to have our family together.

♥ Honeybear & Snookums

I dont have to be good....I'm CUTE!

First few days being back home have been a little rough, but we are making it. First night was the worst. Kaelyn wouldnt fall asleep and was up till 4am, and she wouldnt fall asleep in her bassinet but when i put her in her carseat she was out till the next feeding time. Breast feeding is still going good. One bad thing is that i have a rash on both my arms and on my tummy. Not sure what it is and im getting irritated because i have been trying to get my doctor to call to talk about certain things and i was hoping to hear from her today (29th) and i havent heard. Im concerned about the rash because im not sure how i got it. Making an appointment tomorrow cause im getting tired of waiting for her to call me back. I need to figure out what this is because i DO NOT wanna give it to baby. So hopefully that will work its way out. Then i have to make our one month appointment for baby and mommy so we can make sure that im healing and that she is doing good.


She is NO longer yellow. She has a very nice color to her. She feels like shes gaining a little bit more weight which is GOOD which means that my milk is good. Which i already knew, but its good to know FOR SURE! And Anna Banana metioned today that her ears look as though they are starting to pop out a little, and NO i have not been playing with her ears..LOL. But other then that we are doing good. Getting ready for daddys arrival home. Cant wait!! Roughly 3 weeks till he is home (crossing our fingers that the dates DO NOT change, but its the army!) But me and baby Kaelyn are really ready to have daddy home and be able to spend some REAL quality time together. Well thats my update for this week. Also some pictures. ENJOY!

♥ Honeybear & Snookums

Baby Makes 3!

As many of you know our daughter has entered the world to join mommy and daddy. I finally had a little bit of time since the little darling is taking a snooze. So heres the story.

On Janurary 14th at 3 am i thought that my water broke and i even asked my friend Vanessa if it might have broken. And her advice was to stand in the shower and do a few squats and see if any liquid came out. Well i did that and nothing came out, and also this might be a little TMI but when i wiped i had soe mucusy thing with blood in it (a little scary) but i just decided to wait it out and see if anything progressed. And well around 6am or so i started to feel contractions. Well my doctors office wasnt open yet so i waited. I called them and told them about what had been going on and they said to go straight to Kapiolani Medical Center for Women and Children. By that time the contractions had started to get closer and little bit stronger. So got my things together (since i wasnt expecting her to come early), i had to pack my bag, goo thing i was smart and already had the baby bag packed. Around 9 am i finally head my way to the doctors. I get there at about 10 am and the contractions were VERY close.

I finally get taken in after about an hour or so i get taken back in triage. By then i had my BEST bud there (Anna Banana). I get taken back, they hook me up and then they have to check to see if my water broke. And SURE ENOUGH my water broke. So we head my little butt to my room to get things started. I was really happy that during everything i was able to talk to my hubby. And that made things a million times better. So contractions started coming STRONG to the point that i was about to cry, so they checked to see how much i was dilated and at i think around 1 pm or 2pm (the times are all fuzzy in my mind) i was 6 cm dialted. And by then i had been contemplating getting an epidural and by then i had decided that i wanted it...LIKE RIGHT NOW! (LOL) So i went ahead and got that done. It hurt but gosh darn it the pain was gone in a matter of minutes and i was able to make it through every contraction after that like it was nothing.

Few more hours went by and i was feeling alot of pressure, not to the point of totally pushing but it was getting intense. And so they checked me again (around 5pm or so) and GOSH DARN IT i was fully dialted with my cervix partly around the top of her head. At that point they said it could be a matter of minutes to a matter of hours. And before you know it start feeling ALOT of pressure (like i had to poop...lol) And that when it all started. The pushing, the breathing properly and for me the SCREAMING...lol. But before i knew it she was here. Her sweet little body was placed onto mine and everything just disappeared. I TOTALLY forgot about the pain. It was like it never even happened. Best of all my hubby was there in his own way, my best bud was texting him on yahoo when she was born. He was SO excited!

So they take our sweet little girl to get weighed, and she was a WOPPING 7 lbs 15.5 oz (a week before the doctor said she felt about 6 lbs). When i heard that i was EXTREMELY surprised. And what was funny, was she was the BIGGEST baby and the ONLY girl in the nursery that day. I thought that was cute. Few hours go by and i FINALLY get to have our baby girl in the room with me. It was rough the first night; especially since breast feeding was taking a really SLOW start. But now at almost 11 days old we are experts at it now. Shes a very calm and peacful baby girl. She doesnt cry much but when she does she either has a nice BIG 'OL burp or she has a dirty diaper. She DOES NOT like dirty diapers. But other then that she is just PERFECT! I dont think that me or Sal could ask for a better baby girl. Even though he thinks that she doesnt look like him she is ALL his. And she has already stolen his heart; minus the fact that he thinks shes a little on the chuncky side (which is NOT true..lol). Having her i think is making the time fly since he is now going to be home in about 25 days. And i know he enjoys when we are both on webcam, she entertains him and i know his heart melts every single time. We are the worlds HAPPIEST mommy and daddy!! All that needs to happen now is him getting his sexy butt home to hold both of his girls.

Talking to hubby in triage.

CONTRACTIONS!!!

After they gave me the Epidural.

Theres our sweet baby girl....all dirty.

Look at that happy new mommy.

7 lbs 15.5 oz, and only girl in the nursery.

First stroller ride, can you tell she LOVES it...LOL

Taking a SNOOZE, thats all shes been doing..lol.

All the clothes my loving Uncle, Aunt and cousins gave to our precious little girl.

Hanging out in my BOPPY...i LOVE this thing!

Like Mother like daughter!

BIG YAWN!


Just LOVE those cheeks!

Kaelyn and Mr. Giraffe.

How ADORABLY cute is that face?

Chilling in my boppy again...

My pretty blue eyes, just like mommy and daddy.

Sorry this was late, but as you know new babys and new mommys have ALOT of bonding to do. But i got a little free time when the little stinker was taking a little nap after being up ALL morning and into the evening. Hope you enjoy the pictures and my LOVELY story.

Can't believe that she is 2 weeks old on wednesday!!

♥ Honeybear & Snookums

Thoughts

True strength is holding yourself together when everyone else expects you to fall apart.

♥ Honeybear & Snookums

UPDATE SOON TO COME!!

UPDATE IS SOON TO COME!!! HOLD YOUR HORSES...LOL!

♥ Honeybear & Snookums

AMAZING NEWS!!!

Okay so today i hadn't really gotten to talk to Sal cause the net was down or not working. And i was getting a little nervous because that is how i get when i dont hear from him. So i put some money on my calling card and i called him and he answered..YAY!! And so we were talking and just chatting; we miss hearing one anothers voice so we always just talk about anything and everything. And then we started talking about baby and how close it is to her arrival. And then he told me the GREATEST news that any girl in whole wide world would love to hear after being apart for SO long. HE FOUND OUT HIS FLY OUT DATE!! So i was freaking out and he hadn't even told me about it yet. Then finally he told me. He flys out the 16th of Feburary, and it takes about 2-3 days to get back to Hawaii. So that means that he will be home by the 18th ot 19th. WHICH is sooner then it was about a month or so ago. So in 3 days it marks the month mark from him leaving that GOD FORSAKEN place and coming home to his girls.

How exciting is that??? I mean us army wives/fiancees/girlfriends wait MONTHS and MONTHS and MONTHS till we hear the dates. It just BLOWS my mind that its SO close. I remember a year ago i would be getting up every morning getting dressed and dragging my lazy, sad butt to work and facing all these people that i didnt want to even talk to and coming home to and empty bed and falling asleep all alone is ALMOST over. Now i get to wake up every morning knowing that its ANOTHER day closer to him coming home another day closer to having the love of my life in my arms again. Waking up next to him, popping him when he snores to loud and i cant sleep, having my 4:30 am wake ups and kisses before he heads off to work. I am SO SO SO SO SO SO excited. It seems so surreal that this is going to be happening. I swear it feels like just the other day i was taking him to schofield and dropping him off and saying good-bye. OMG i am just in complete SHOCK! I am just out od words but feel like i need to put this down. HES COMING HOME!!!!

Im gonna get my SILLY, AMAZING, WONDERFUL, HANDSOME, DAMN HOTT Hubby in my arms AGAIN!!! There is nothing more that i want then to have my Baby home. Im just EXCITED!! I LOVE MY SNOOKUMS!!

My Silly man in DisneyLand!!

♥ Honeybear & Snookums

HAPPY MONDAY!!

Today wasn't TOO eventful but i thought that i would fill you in on my day. Well today i went and did a carseat inspection. It was actually a really smart thing to do because i had the carseat in the right way i just didnt have it tight enough. It was very enlightening. I am EXTREMELY happy that i took the time to go and get that done. It makes me feel so much better knowing that when little booger is in the car she is safe as a bug. Because the movie said that 9 out of 10 carseats are done wrong. And that can cause SERIOUS accidents and i really dont wanna loose our baby to a small stupid minor mistake that just takes meer minutes to fix. Makes me feel like im really doing a good job as a mommy to be.

Then i headed to the doctors. FUN FUN..down to my weekly visits. Same old thing, measured my tummy and im 41 inches from my pelvic bone to the top of my uterus (which is a little bigger then my week now, but its okay) Then they did a test to make sure that my water wasnt leaking, cause i was having some fluid. Then she checked to see if i was at all dilated and i am 2 cm dilated. (YAY!! 8 more to go then little booger is here!!!) Then i got the results from my GBS (Group B strep test) and it came back negative which is a good thing. And my blood tests were all fine. So everything is looking GREAT!! Now its the REAL waiting game. When is she gonna come. If she comes early i would really like it to be the 21st; that is my grandfathers birthday he passed away when i was i think 10 years old. I miss him much! And another day would be the due date that they gave me because that is exactly mine and my hubbys 20 month anniversary, how cool would that be? But honestly whenever she decides to pop her little feather butt out is fine with me. I just wanna meet her and hold her and LOVE all over her. TICK TOC TICK TOC!!!!

And finally the HIGHLIGHT of my day. So only a few know that i have been waiting for something to come in the mail for me. A letter to be exact. A letter all the way from Iraq. It was mailed out a week before chirstmas and was taking FOREVER to get here. But today i went and checked the mail thinking to myself its SO not gonna be in there and low and behold the only piece of mail. And i mean only piece of mail not even some useless news paper that i dont even look at i usually throw it away. But NO it was just his letter laying there waiting for me to open the box and take it out and hold it in my hands and scream and smile NON stop knowing that FINALLY this long awaited letter was mine. In my hands ready for me to open it and read every single word on every single page. It made me cry. I love his letter SO SO SO much i swear i am going to read it a million million times before he gets home.

So that was the ending to my day. And it was BY FAR the best ending any girl could ever ask for in the last few weeks maybe even days of her pregnancy!

♥ Honeybear & Snookums

WELCOME 2009!!

10.9.8.7.6.5.4.3.2.1........HAPPY 2009!!

So another year down and a start to a new year. Well as you know 2008 was a year of many adventures and a few small tradagies as well as wonderful news. Im SO excited about what 2009 has to bring. I mean what can get better then having my first child and having my hubby FINALY coming home. Im SO ready for what this year has to offer us. I have a GREAT feeling about 2009. IM READY FOR WHAT YOU HAVE TO OFFER ME!!

11 days into 2009 and its been a ride already. Today i am 38 weeks pregnant and i have 14 more days to go. I sometimes wish that she would just POP out of me already. I mean im happy that she is staying inside because every day in my tummy is another day closer to having everything ready for the real world. But i sometimes sit on my bed and stare at my tummy and say "Don't you wanna meet your mommy? Im ready to meet you!" And all that i get is a kick to the side. Shes gonna be just like her daddy...a little STINKER. So with 14 days left one can get a little excited and nervous at the same time. I mean i feel pretty prepared but i mean its a BABY, not a baby doll that you buy from toy's r us, a real live baby that cries, poops, pees and does everything a little baby does. But i know that once i see her sweer little face looking up at me and see her smile for the first time that MOMMY BUTTON is going to turn on like nothing. But its still scary. You wonder if you are going to be a good mom, wonder if you are going to be able to make your baby laugh, make your baby stop crying. But once again i know that everything will come natural. I mean women have been having babies for years and years and they didnt have near as much of the things that we have noe then. So i think im ready. Im just excited, i cant wait to see her face and see if she has her daddys ears and just be able to love all over her. And i know that my dear hubby is ready for her arrival so he can see her and count down the days till he gets home even more till he is able to hold both his girls. He said the cutest thing the other day he said that he cant wait to come home and throw her in the air and tickle her little feet. How cute is that? He is such a ball of love and i know from the moment our little girl sees him she is going to fall MADLY in love with him just like her mommy did.

14 days till i get to meet our little BOOGER and about 44 days till my hubby comes home FOR GOOD! I mean i remember when it was like 300 some odd days till i got to see him. It feels AMAZING to only have a little over a month till he comes home. I can not wait till i get to see him again, touch him, hold him, love all over him and do what grown adults do (LOL). Its going to be SO insane having him home. I mean i finally get to sleep next to him again, and wake up knowing that this is for real and hes not going to be leaving me again. It going to be HEAVEN! And then come late May or sometime in June we are heading out little tooshies to Fort Benning Georgia where we are going to start our lives over. We need a new change, a new pace of life and new scenery. Im really excited about moving there. I mean i been a Hawaii girl all my life, i need something different, and i think that im the only one in my family that is actually going to make something of themselves in a state other then Hawaii.

What more could anyone ask for? I mean i get to POP out our beautiful baby girl and get my AMAZINGLY AWESOME hubby home. Come on im living the good life!!
♥Honeybear & Snookums

Recap of 2008

10.9.8.7.6.5.4.3.2.1.....HAPPY 2008!!

(I know a little behind but i'll catch you up)

So good-bye to 2007 and HELLO to 2008. It started rocky, considering it hadn't been that long since he had left. It was hard waking up every morning and getting my butt to work and be happy and smile at everyone and be nice when you were so GRUMPY and sad that the one person that meant the world to me was gone. Not just gone for a few months and we would get to be with one another everyday, but for 15 months. Has anyone really realized how long 15 months is. I mean thats a year of your lives together gone, well not gone but not physically together. And at this moment it was barely even a month. But we are strong and we can do it.

Then Feburary came and the worst thing that you could EVER think happened. It was such a SHOCK! And it really makes you thank god everyday. But there was a stryker accident on Feburary 8th 2008 four Army soldiers were killed when their truck struck a explosive. 2 of those men were stationed in Hawaii and were actually in the same Battalion as my hubby. But what makes it even a million times worse the Sgt. Gary D. Willet; also known as Calvin was a dear friend of ours. We lived with him and his AMAZING girlfriend for 6 months when we lived out in Ewa. And let me tell you the moment i heard the news i was in COMPLETE shock. I mean it was so hard to believe that someone so close to me and my other half had passed. It really made me SCARED. For about 2 days i didnt hear a single thing and a MILLION thoughts were going through my head. Was my hubby okay? was the biggest one. I was so scared that i was going to loose him. But a few days later i heard from him. He was okay, but it was hard. I mean we really didnt know the guy but he was a good friend, i mean we spent 6 months of our lives living with this insane guy. It was hard. And let me tell you ever since that day i thank god every single time i get to hear from my hubby. When i go more then 24 hours not hearing from him my heart stops and i go into a state of panic. R.I.P Calvin! We all miss you very much!

Then a few months go by, same old story get up everyday go to work and come home to an empty bed. Then we start talking about his leave. They get to come home for only 18 days out of an 15 month deployment. And we decided for April/May. And well on April 23rd i get a phone call at 1am, and it was him telling me that he was on his way home and would be here by 1 pm that day. I was SO EXCITED that i couldnt go back to sleep. I had butterflies in my tummy. I got all dressed up for him, it had only been about 5 months since we saw one another. But it felt like it had been FOREVER. So i get to the airport WAY early and then i find out that his flight doesnt even come in till 2pm. So im not just WAY early im EXTREMELY early. But i didnt care all i cared about was seeing his gorgeous face. So im waiting, and waiting and i dont see him. Silly man went another way and i eventually found him and i just didnt even know what to do. But i hugged him and kissed him. It was so nice to feel him touch me again. So here starts our leave together.

LEAVE:

The BEST part of this leave was that we were able to celebrate his 32 birthday together. So i made him spagehtti for dinner and i baked him a cake and he loved it. Im not the best baker but its the thought that counts.

Then EARLY the next morning we head off on our trip. Our first stop was Maui. We had a BLAST!! We went everwhere and did everything. We went to the aquarium, we went 4 wheeling, we went on a dinner cruise (i got sick), but he enjoyed it getting drunk. We did the road to hana...which i also got sick on. And we just had a blast being together and experiencing something new together. It was amazing!

Then after about 4 or 5 days in Maui we headed off to the trip that he was SO looking forward to. DISNEYLAND!! He had never been to Disneyland, but had gone to Disney World. But it was special cause we were together. We were SO excited, we were seriously BIG kids. We did everything. I mean we took pictures with all the characters and we went on most of the rides (im not a ride person..well big scary ride). But i did a few because i know that he wanted to expiernce them with me. We had so much fun, and the best part was that our hotel was like right outside Disneyland so we didnt need a rental car we just walked there. We had SO SO SO SO much fun! It was amazing how much you can fit in 4 days at both parks. And for such a nice price.

We had So much fun that we really didnt wanna come back to Oahu; i think mostly because we knew that soon we would have to say our good-byes. But we made the best of it. When we got back to Oahu we did everything. We went mopeding (which was INSANE!). We went on another dinner cruise, which i didnt get sick..lol. We went on the Atlantis subarime which made me a little sick, but was fun. And then since he was going to miss our 1 year anniversary he took me out to a fancy dinner. We went and bought some really nice clothes got a couples massage (not our first one) and then we got all dolled up and went out to dinner at Morton's Steak House. It was the BEST ending to the perfect leave. Then May 12th came along. It was hard to believe that our 18 days together were over. It went by SO fast, but it was AMAZING and we had the BEST time ever!

I still remember that day, we had gone to the Dole plantation and did the maze. We thought that he didnt have to leave till later, but when we got back home he re-checked his tikcet and he was leaving in about 2 hours. WOW what a slap!! I wanted more time. It was SO hard not to cry! I was being SO strong i really was and i was just embracing the last few moments that we were going to have together. And then BAM!! The tears start flowing. I could not stop them, i was SO sad to see him go. I was so afraid that i as going to loose him. Hes my world my EVERYTHING. And all i could do was hug him and kiss him for the last time and watch him walk onto that plane and fly away from me for the second time. I cried all the way home, but had to SUCK it up because i had to go to work the very next morning. But i made it through the days. But it still hurt knowing that this time i would not get to see him for 10-11 months. But once again we are strong and we knew that nothing not even and stupid deployment would break us.

About 2 weeks after he had left i took a pregnancy test because i had a feeling, and well it came out with a BIG FAT POSITIVE! I was pregnant. I could not believe it. I remember sitting on the toilet taking the test and placing it on the floor to let it do its thing and the next thing i know i pick it up and it has TWO pink lines. I swear that i almost fainted. I was so EXCITED that i couldnt wait to tell him. When i told him he was in disbelief, as well as i was. And then came a hard part, i had to tell my parents. And that didnt go so well. I actually ended moving to Baltimore Maryland to live with his mother and step father, people that i had only meant once. But they opened there arms and there house to me. And it was very nice. I expiernced alot there. Going from living in Hawaii to movving ALL the way to the east coast. It was a new expiernce, but it wasnt for me. So about 3 months after living there and being almost 20 weeks pregnant we decided that i needed to move back to Hawaii. We both knew that i would be a little bit more happier because i was in a place that i was familiar with and that i knew how to get around and most of all could get things together for when our baby and him came home. I got us a very nice house 3br 1.5.5 baths. It just right for the two soon to be 3 of us.

Baby talk now. So when we found out that i was pregnant i was already 5 weeks pregnant and the estimated due date is Janurary 25th 2009. I was SO excited. We were finally starting our family together. It was amazing. I was SO excited when i got to hear her voice for the first time. It was AMAZING my heart seriously stopped. It was just so heart touching. We had really wanted to have a boy and had decided that we wouldnt find out the sex of the baby till we had him/her. But he was WAY too excited and i really wanted to know the sex so i could go shopping. So i found a place that did 4d ultrasounds. So he let me go and do that. And i found out that we were going to have ourselves a little girl. I was excited because either way this baby was going to be a part of me and him and that was the BEST thing in the whole world. So i got too choose her name and her name is going to be Kaelyn Emilia-Hart Callender. I been preparing myself and the house for this little precious gift that we are about to bring into this world. It does suck that he is not going to be there for the delivery, but he will surely be there in spirit; holding my hand telling me that everything is going to be okay.

In septebmer, a terrible thing happened to my family My GREAT grandmother who was about 95 years old passed away. It was very hard on our family because she was someone very special to everyone. Its very sad that she was not able to meet her great great grandchild, but i know that everyday she is watching over me and our daughter and is sitting up there in heaven smiling because she knows that no matter what she is apart of this precious gift. Also she is taking my great grandmothers maiden name Hart as well as i have for the past 21 years and will forever and ever. I miss you so much TUTU, wish you were here to say hello to our beautiful baby girl!!

So Halloween comes, and Thanksgiving and December and all DEPRESSING months cause im without him for every single one. We have still yet to have a REAL Christmas together. But i know soon enough we will and we will also have our sweet baby girl with us. December also marked the 1year mark. So that means 12 months down only 3 more to go (more like 2..lol). And now i am almost there to the BIG day of our daughter, and almost to the day that i get to hold my hubby again!!

♥ Honeybear & Snookums

Me & My Other Half

I figured that i would start off with a little background of me and my family. (going way back about me. lol.)

Starting with me; Im 21 years old (turned 21 on September 1st 2008). I am a born and raised local girl; born and raised in the state of Hawaii on the island of Oahu. I grew up in a small town on the north shore of Oahu with my mom and dad, 2 sisters and a brother. I guess you could say that i was and still am the "BLACK SHEEP"; completely diferent from the other 3. I attended Ka'a'awa Elementary School, then transfered to King Intermediate School and then headed off to Kalaheo High school. Graduated from Kalaheo in June of 2005. Then made my journey to Windward Community College. There i studied to get my AA, but never finished. Eventually in time i will go back to finish my schooling.

At the age of 18 i got married. At that moment in time it felt that it was the best thing for me. But let me tell you i was WAY wrong. We lasted about 9 months and then started the divorce process. It was a stupid mistake and one that i have learned from. Before the divorce i had met my current hubby (well hubby to be). I remember it as though it was yesturday. It was late at night and i was bored, thought that i would just make my way into a yahoo chatroom. There i wrote "Im bored, anyone want to talk?" and POP someone wanted to talk to me. Me and the person (lets name him SALVATORE) TOTALLY hit it off. We talked for hours and hours and hours. He was someone that i trusted, even though we had never met in real life. He is in the Army, and was currently deployed in the Phillipines and wouldnt be home till the ending of May. He was an amazing man, he himself was in the middle of a divorce. He was 31 years old when we met, he has a little girl who is now six. He has been around the world and back so many times, seen so many different places and met so many different people. He is originally from Baltimore Maryland, has been in the state of Hawaii for 5 years. We would talk everyday, and when i mean everyday i mean everyday. We always had something to talk about. And to be honest i fell head over heels in love with him, but was afraid to admit it because i was still married and technically he was still married; in the middle of a divorce. When he finally came home and we finally met i knew that there was no way that i was going to let him go. Me and my husband at the time were going through a rough road because he wanted to be with me and other women at the same time and that was not what i had grown up knowing what marriage was.

So when Sal (current love) came home i realized that there is better out there for me. And i dont regret leaving my husband at all. Sal and i just totally clicked, being together (physically) just made our connection so much better. I have to admit that at the start i was a little worried because of the age difference. When we met i was 19 and he had just turned 31 on April 25th 2007. But as i got to know him and know everything about him i realized that age is just a number that when you are in love the number on your drivers license doesnt mean a single thing. So a few days after Sal returned home me and him moved into a place with 3 other people. People that he had known for sometime. It was something new for the both of us. It was that hint that we were really never going back to the people that we were married to. We had such a blast!! On our first date it was AMAZING, he picked me up in his HUGE jeep (he enjoyed 4wheeling) and took me out to the beach, but got us stuck (i was panicing and then some guys came and helped us out.) Then he took me out to dinner to Buca di peppo, where we met some crazy biker guys that told him to kiss my knees (dont ask why) and then we headed back to the beach and spent the rest of the night under the stars. It was the BEST date that a girl could ever have asked for.

So we moved out to Ewa with 2 other army guys and one of them had a girlfriend living there as well. It was quite a change. But we wanted to start our life together and spend as much time together as we could. Mainly because a few days after he got home he found out that he was going to be deployed to Iraq for 15 months. It was quite a SLAP in the face and i wish that it never happened but it was going to happen. We had talked about marriage alot in our relationship. We wanted to star our life together. So a few months go by and then he has to leave to go to NTC (training). He was only to be gone for about a month and then ended up being gone for 2 months. It was the hardest 2 months ever! The longest we had been apart since we started dating. When he came home one day we were just strolling through the mall and we strolled into a jewelry store and were looking at promise rings, and the next thing we know we are picking out a wedding band and a engagement band. So about a month after we bought the ring he proposed. We were at my ALL time favorite resturant (The Old Spaghetti Factory) and he asked me to be his wife. And OF COURSE i said that 3 letter word....YES!

Then just a few days after that we headed off to Maryland (where he is from) for me too meet his family and for him to take me to places that he LOVES to go when he is home. He took me everywhere, from Salem, MA for Halloween; which i must say has to be the COOLEST place ever to go for Halloween. Come on i mean witches were killed here. And it was just amazing. I love that kind of weird history stuff (the little history that i actually like..lol), to Morristown Tennesse to see the house that he wants to have after he gets out of the Army; he also took me to Chattanuga and Gatlinburg. He knew all the great places to take me. I had a GREAT time . He showed me everything. It was FREZZING!! Im a Hawaii girl thrown to the east coast in October. But it was the BEST trip that we took in the year of 2007. Also in October me and Sal moved in with my parents because our roomate from our old place was dumb and didnt tell any of us that the lease was up at the ending of October. So we moved there, well it was really for me because it was the easiest and safest place for me to be when he was in Iraq.

Then November came along and nothing really exciting happened. We just spent every single day together preparing ourselves for the HORRIBLE day. So November FLIES by and before we know it hes packing and repacking and repacking his bags to get ready to go. And on December 7th 2007 we drive to Schofield Barracks to spend our last few hours together. He didnt really leave till around noon or earlier on the 8th of December. That by far was the hardest thing to do. Having to say good-bye to the LOVE of my life for 15 months. I swear i cried for atleast a month after he left. NOTHING felt the same without him. Sleeping in the bed after he left just felt so empty. And here began our journey of being apart.

♥ Honeybear & Snookums